I was chatting to Darren over the partition this morning about this blog, and how much fun I was having starting arguments; about our company newsletter, the article I wrote for it, and whether I should submit my blog entry, Contracting vs. Consulting, for those who hadn’t read it. I’d heard rumours that some people in the London office liked it.
I hadn’t. I was quite surprised to read them, but it confirms something which I’ve been suspecting for a while: I really am being watched. I thought perhaps that given recent debates, and the treatment of my blog and particularly that post, that it might be worth a word.
I am not an authoritative voice on anything except my own experience, which is limited – growing, I hope, and nurtured by a great deal of enthusiasm and idealism – but to take anything I say as gospel truth would be dangerous. I like to provoke; I like to start discussions; I love to be told that I’m wrong, and even if I argue that I’m right until you and I are both blue in the face, I have never yet had a debate which didn’t open my mind a little and start me thinking.
I’ve come to realise that the interest in my blog, and presumably in the other blogs on the same feed, far outreaches the scope of the company feeding it; that my company is itself at the forefront of Agile, XP and the open-minded approach to software engineering; and that a large number of people are looking to it as an authoritative voice, and by extension to everyone in it. This realisation is simultaneously humbling and uplifting. To see something I’ve written being discussed by experienced, talented individuals around the world is very flattering, but also suggests a certain level of blog responsibility which I didn’t previously know I had.
Well, now I know.
There are a few things which I’m going to try to do differently as a result. Not many, but a few.
Please, if you discuss a post of mine or see that someone else has – stick a comment in and let me know! I love that people read and talk to me about the things I write, and I love to get other points of view. It’s useful to know when I’m wrong, useful to know if I’m right, and even more useful to realise that there is no spoon.